THINKING OF YOU - JOURNAL ENTRY

It was 2019. We went on a few dates. I liked him. He texted me everyday, until he didn’t. I was left wondering if I should give him space or reach out one last time and tell him how I felt but I knew that he knew that I was thinking of him…he just wasn’t thinking of me like that anymore and didn’t have the…guts? care? to be direct about it. So instead, I poured my feelings into this song as he quietly ghosted me.

I remember very clearly writing this song as I was sitting at the kitchen table one evening, I was obsessed with Kacey Musgraves ‘Golden Hour’ album at the time (still am!) and that pop/country influence definitely made it’s way into this songs feel. I found this voice memo - you can hear the lyrics have changed ever so slightly since:

Production wise, I love what we created with the backing vocals in this song, especially on the bridge - we had a lot of fun layering it all up. My hometown band (Shout out to Matt, Jason and Jaiman!) also really helped shape this one before I took it to my producer which I’m so grateful for. Within the albums story, to me this song represents letting yourself get a bit distracted, swept away and lost in a daydream.

This song has actually been out for over a year which is crazy! We made a music video which I also released way before the album was announced…this has been a way longer process than I originally intended, and if I’m honest the reason for that is simply that I’ve struggled to find the self belief in myself to make it a priority! Doing this independently is a huge task, I didn’t want to put it out without putting the effort into planning an album launch, making videos and giving it some care and attention, and for a while there I just didn’t have that in me. But I think it’s all happening at the perfect time now, best laid plans hey!

Catch you tomorrow for track 4 x